Life, it's worse than I thought

So, life's been busy around here.  Yadda, yadda, yadda and all those other excuses of why I haven't blogged in weeks, months, a while.  

So, yea, whatever.

It's all good.  Ran a couple of races, but my running has dwindled to a halt, until my schedule lets up enough for me to get some sleep and wake up early to do it!  Ok, enough excuses with that too.

Working keeping this cutie pie below, homeschooling, housework, veganizing the fridge, the garden and the bellies, etc.  

Great news is that we have a garden this year and we have been harvesting mostly lettuce and radishes thus far, due to a late start, due to some other excuses I could plug in here, but won't.  I did actually pick the first of our cucumber and squashes yesterday!  How exciting is that?!

Life is good.  Life is busy.  Life is, well, life.

This picture of these sweet pea plants grabbing the fence is my favorite.  Why, you ask?  Well, thanks for asking and for reading all the way to the bottom today! Because this is how I feel right now.  I feel as though I am constantly grasping on to the fence and wrapping my fingers around it so tight just to hang on!  I've been wrestling with issues that I never thought I'd ever have to get in the ring with and do battle.  I am shocked at myself.  I sometimes look in the mirror as if it's a strange person standing there and just giving her that "what the heck are you doing" look.  And there I am looking back not knowing where to begin to explain my actions or lack of action.  It's weird.  Holding on for dear life, looking down at the dirt below, scrambling up the fence just to get closer to the sun, or son, in my case.  Wanting to feel the warmth on my face.  Wanting to know the peace He brings.  Wondering how I got here.  Wondering how long I'll be here.  Not letting go.  Knowing that the answer lies in the climb.  Holding on for dear life.

For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 

~Matthew 6:32-33